Chapter 11:Before the finale…
You and I,
Yay, at last is like going to end already.
But I the previous entry was like nothing much anyway.
I didn’t really write out things that she said to me that I remember until today, those time where I really enjoyed the most while chatting with her on skype or on the phone.
But before I continue I would like to share one of the weirdest topic that only a girl like her would go on talking to me.
One just one fine day, I decided to call her, all the sudden I just thought of yeaa what you think about teleport.
So my idea of teleporting was…
An object, transform into some mini particles or maybe wave, transport it through to a place using a device.
But her idea really gave me another picture which I actually didn’t think about.
Going through a DIFFERENT dimension.
Till then I realize that yea it make sense to, because when you travel through another dimension, people won’t get to see you, so in another words your like literally teleporting.
Then I remember telling her, “Yea just like Bleach, you go to Soul Society people see you as you’ve disappear, then when you reappear somewhere is really like teleport!”
Another one more I would like to share is…
I remember talking to her about plastic surgery,
I tell her that is also part of my dream to improve the techniques of plastic surgery.
She asked so how you wanna improve it.
I just tell her, hmm I wanna make it like in a natural way, so that you know people no need to implant anything inside the body.
But I forgot her reply after that.
Hah all these really do brings back memories…
All these conversations, ONLY XUE will talk to me about it.
I don’t think I will actually get to find anyone to talk to me about it so soon.
Each time when I say out my thoughts, she will always have her own thoughts which sometimes inspire me, sometimes enlighten me, and so on. Always bringing a positive outcome.
As I’ve mentioned many times, that’s what I like about her..
She treasure uniqueness, she doesn’t follow what people would normally do or think, she dares to speak out what she thinks.
Our first meeting in your country
This was suppose to be one of the most kaninabochibai outing ever I go in a group.
But I would actually wanna say thx to ALL Coup members who actually HAVE the idea to make this happen.
Apostates who talks BAD behind my back during this trip. FUCK YOU.
So this trip was my FIRST TIME EVER to Singapore, and I solo alone sitting bus. They said they wanted to stay for a week. So yea I actually brought luggage like 2 bags since is 1 week, in fact brought so much cash that you could buy a PSP and a NDS. Perhaps even CLOSE to buy an iPhone if you want to talk about the TOTAL cost(First time make passport ma).
Before that I was SERIOUSLY really excited about it, is like YAY CELES IS REALLY MEETING UP, SG AND MALAYSIANSzzzz.. woohooo!
I love seeing people being united gather together and have fun ^^V
Is actually counted as a miracle that I could go for this =D
If wasn’t for someone who IS part of the sponser, I WOULDN’T be in Singapore the week of Christmas 2008.
I’ve not only so called sacrifice the $, I also SACRIFICE a YEARLY trip with my bunch of TRUE FRIENDS in Thailand.
Thailand currency somore lower, Singapore is like x2.3 close to 2.4 already that time.
First day, all of us already in chalet.
Yea the CONSPIRACY of me owing Miruko’s money was apparently a BIG AGENDA at that time.
I brought a lot of $, why would I wanna cheat.
In fact, NONE OF YOU ASSCLOWNS has actually approach me personally and tell me that he was quite upset about it.
As far as I remember, NESH the one that people claims him lansikia foul mouth, was more MAN than all of you, he in fact came and talk to me about it.
So yea, of course I did discuss with him about this matter.
Is only 15 SGD, why would I DON’T WANT TO PAY?
I remember I pay, that’s why I told Miruko if you are really sure that I didn’t pay I will pay it up to you, after the trip of course, cause that was the time I only knew.
Of all that, yeaaa.. I was in SG.. excitingly wanted to see those SG-ians. Wanna HAVE FUN with CELESTICA the GUILD that I supported with my FULL HEART.
Yes, of course you all are waiting for this sentence.
“I can’t wait to see Xue! Is been one and a half years since we last met!”
So first night of chalet, it was really great to see Jia En, Xun and Royston. If I could still see this 3 person together again that’s really fun.. I still wanna play “bluff” with them again but I don’t think is possible anymore as one is no longer with the 2 anymore.
I slept early because I actually wanted to stay up for the rest of the night to chat with Xue the next night ^^V
Jeng Jeng Jeng…
The next day…
I went to get my Singtel prepaid, contact her asking what time she’ll be there.
That shows how sibeh excited I was. ^^
The following stories is what I didn’t mentioned on the last entries about my first experience in Singapore.
So it was night, and I actually STUPIDLY suggested that why not I find you and lead you to the chalet.
Smartass Malaysian wanna lead a Singaporean to a Singaporean chalet. Sohai or not?
Nola actually I wanted to accompany her to there when she reach.
She denied. That time I also don’t know why.
I remember buying a ICE BLENDED COFFEE from Coffee Bean, large somore.. and while drinking the coffee and came back without accompanying her, I felt really no good.
2 things- either I sohai got so affected by it or sambal+coffee = gg?
Those Apostates claims that I want to show off ate all of their food during a night before that’s why my stomach wanna explode that’s why I vomited.
Yea.. I told Jia En about it. That my stomach don’t feel good. So eventually the WHOLE group knows about it.
EVERYTHING was fine but all I felt was wind on my stomach, so hard to tahan and is not cool.. somore that time Xue came.
When she saw me, she smiled and say Hi.
I saw her with the makes up all was like.. wow so different from the one in Genting.
Sadly she seems to be really sleepy and tired, so the conversation didn’t last the WHOLE NIGHT, and my stomach don’t feel good.
So I so called took a rest la, put the “Feng You” la.. many things I do but nothing seems to be right, so I only have to tahan ^^V
Sigh.. I really wish that time, both of us already learnt guitar, and we bring our guitar there and play ^^V. That will rock my trip.
But what’s meant to be will meant to be and not meant to be will be…
Not Meant To Be.
But on that night, I only discover on stupid thing, her 2nd toe is LONGER than the first toe for both feets WAAAAY longer… =D
So yeaa.. I actually didn’t really ponder much why did she denied me accompanying her. Hah, cause I so called didn’t want to bother such small matter.
But well.. such small matters actually matters where it actually shows a sign of leakage of SOMETHING IS WRONG.
I used to thought that hmm I think only a FEW CELES knows about it UNLESS those who knows about it BEING A BIG MOUTH tell the WHOLE CELES. But that time, I never thought that the whole celes know.
Perhaps the whole celes know way before I know ^^V
So that’s why she would actually REALLY MINE if I were to accompany her to the chalet.
Of course ma! Don’t want people to say and tease horrr… or simply think right? yeaaaa ^^V
So a few days later, I’ve actually decided to stay longer… FOR HER.
I could go off on the same time with Xiong and all to meet up with my group of friends for outings in Malaysia but NO! I want to EXPLORE SINGAPORE WITH XUE.
So I called.
The following conversation is really funny.
It goes like.
“I want to go out explore YOUR PLACE with you ^^V”
“Aiyaa I lazy to go out laa.. Singapore got what nice to see? Very Sien”
So STUPIDLY again, I try to ask her like as if I could try convice her as a “friend”.
“Why la lazy.. I not everytime can come Singapore. A SIMPLE place to hang out and drink and chit chat there will do la.”
“Duwaaan laaazzzzy…”
Knowing her for a year plus, I always like mou diu her when she say lazy. But this time she said lazy is really weird lor.. so I come out with another question.
“Why would you meet me up in Genting but not in your own coutry and your own place?”
Yea.. slumber only I ask that. She also very smart she go answer me.
“Genting that time got my cousin, I spend most of the time with my cousin.”
But she should know what I’m referring to.
I just want it AS SIMPLE AS IT WAS during our FIRST MEETING. WHY CAN’T SUCH THING HAPPEN? IS IN HER PLACE, is all in her advantage.
Is not everytime I can come Singapore this is like my FIRST TIME to Singapore and CAN SPEND A LOT MAN.
But no she give me all the excuses like lazy laa and so on.
NOT a NO.
She just can’t say NO.
For so long of friendship is THAT HARD TO SAY NO TO ME?
She can easily tell me that she don’t want things from me easily, but NOT THIS OUTING TO MEET HER UP. Which is a seriously rare opportunity.
She could easily say NO to biotech, going against it by showing how she has no interest in it, skip class rebel against her parents, argue with them.. but NOT a NO to me.
So of course, since you didn’t say no.
Stupidly as TRUSTING YOUR WORDS AS A FRIEND, I choose not to follow what I feel, but BELIEVE what you say.
So yea I told her okay I’ll call you on Monday at CERTAIN TIME, you just give me a final answer.
Guess what?
“The Singtel mobile customer is currently unavailable.”
Yea, dress myself up to “Explore Singapore” hoping to see you, but you even a NO also cannot tell me, and off the phone.
At least an SMS also will do.
Hahaha.. what’s that for anyway? To make me lose hope?
You want to use your ultimate already eh?
So despite of what happen, I REMEMBER!
I went to Bugis and ate MOS burger.. and I told myself to name Bugis the place where I emo in Singapore.
So I name it the EMO STREET. She did told me that her campus was in Bugis but I didn’t really notice.
MOS burger is cheap, but the fries is noob.. big and chunky not nice to eat.
So then I went EXPLORE SINGAPORE MYSELF… without Xue…
As I imagine by myself like how Xue will elaborate all the places and so on. Guess what? Went to the Bugis Street there, where is like the Petaling Street in KL.. I saw a section where they sell many cosmetics sets… immediately it comes to my mind that “Oh! I’m sure I’ll talk to her about it if she were to bring me walk pass there”.
So these are the part where I didn’t blog about over here
http://shungz.wordpress.com/2009/01/10/singapore-day-7-and-8/
I observed many stuff, yeaaa.. if she was there.. we would definitely talk a lot cause that’s what we always do when we chat on the phone, WE SHARE OUR THOUGHTS ABOUT WHAT WE OBSERVED.
Nahh… no girls could actually get to discuss with me continuously for years.. ONLY XUE CAN.
But what to do, she’s not there, so could only just imagine a little here and there.
All the way from afternoon till 11pm, I traveled along the east west line. Really siao..
Of course I went to Tampines.. to so called EXPLORE her area.
Her area seriously does reminds me of my area.
Housing areas with shopping malls nearby, and perhaps shop houses.
Not really Ulu, not really far from the main city. Quite nice environment to stay.
“You go to Singapore just to get hurt only, some more Thailand so syok, can go club, got many girls to see, and the currency there smaller, you damn sohai laa..” That was what my good friend Zachary told me.
Is kinda true…
I go there, Apostate people make fun of me and I just slumberly ^^V
I go there, was expecting at least ONE OUTING where I get to spend time with Xue for just ONE MOMENT just like how we were on the phone.. it didn’t happen.
The only happy thing is
1) I get to find out the SO CALLED “CELES BETRAYER” Coup De tat were the CELES that accept me for who Shungz is, and who don’t take advantage of me, and genuinely didn’t outcast me and influence people to have the prejudice thinking towards me. =D
2) I’m still able to be nice to them after they talking behind my back, they saying how much they HATE SHUNGZ but cannot show it in real life and say it out to him. ^^V
3) Know that Ecou a.k.a Hansen Erawan is actually the best bf for JiaJia as he was the one who really make such event happen for providing his place for us to stay.
4)Explored Singapore, get to know many more stuff about Singapore, get to know what they have and what they don’t have compare to Malaysia.
5) To get to see WHAT IS SO NICE IN ORCHARD ROAD DURING CHRISTMAS AS MANY Nubz telling me that “Oh is really nice!”
lastly…
To get to know the truth that something is actually wrong between Xue and I. Which I didn’t know why….
So I sms-ed Jia En and say that…
“Hey Jia En, thx for the good times with you guys, I think I will come back on February for Xue’s birthday..and let that be the day to be remembered before anything begin or end.”
Of course I could explained to her what happen between Xue and I.
Before anything begin or end, is just a heads or tails situation that I predict is going to happen.
I told her as if I’m prepared for the outcome..
Yea.. I really really thought Xue was my close friend…
the last few chapters you will find out how noob am I =D
Is going to be the final chapter of the whole story.
^^V
I think I shall blog it by this week.
